Sunday, May 7, 2017


if we only know half of where we came from
we only know half of who we are.

Monday, February 6, 2017

.every stone.

i have a lot to say.
i try to keep my mouth shut every day
afraid to trip someone up or slash someone's tires.
the power of the words that hide behind these lips
is no longer lost on me.
i know the damage they can do.
i know the pain these tiny words can cause.
help me.
help me to know how to use them.
help me craft them.
help me speak.


i layed my blanket down
and slept ontop of your heart.
sweet dreams washed over me
as your beats came and went.

when i awoke you were gone.
now i am a refugee.

Monday, August 1, 2016

.apres moi.


there's a man i know who
i love like i've never loved before.
with him i am the best version
of myself.
i tell myself that if this ends
it will not destroy me.
it will not take me down.
i will keep on standing.
i will be strong and unyielding.
my health will not be affected
and my personal trajectory
will not be altered.
i tell myself
i will not lose it.
i will not break.
i will not be unequivocally hurt.
i'll make the most of it.

but if i'm being honest.
the pain that i will feel will be unmatched.
the hurt that will grasp me will be unfettered.
and i'll weep for years over this man.

yay, for honesty. i've finally felt love.


Wednesday, July 20, 2016

.the beauty of it all.


here i sit weeping.
i didn't know God loved me like this.
i didn't know life could be this beautiful.
everything isn't easy.
it's actually work.
but it's good hard work.
i'm so thankful.
so grateful that i get to even spend time with this human.
let alone get to learn how to love him.

i didn't know love like this existed.
the kind where a man would care about me so much.
where he would want to know what i think.
would get mad if i didn't share my thoughts.
would fight me on it.
and I'm so thankful.
he's the most incredible person.
he's dynamic and inventive.
kind and passionate.
hilarious and sweet.

i didn't know.
i always wished and hoped.
but i didn't know it would be better than my dreams.
because it's real.

so thank you.
Thank you God for this life.
Thank you God for this experience.
for this gift of love.
I want to take care of it.
To always be thankful.
Help me to remember when i forget.


Thursday, April 7, 2016


that you would show such little regard
for the safety of those who can not
defend or protect themselves.

that you are in charge of the well being
of those who need protecting
yet you do not consider the weight
YOUR choices.

that you said you had a "hard conversation"
and yet there is a predator lurking about
on YOUR watch.

if i have anything to do with this
i will speak my peace.
your utter lack of concern for
our students and flippant attitude towards
this situation is egregious
and if i were a parent
i wouldn't trust you with my child.

Thursday, March 17, 2016



i don't know
what i don't know.
but i know that I need you God.
i know that You provide
all there is to life.
i know that You are the Comforter.
You are All.
You are it.

You are all I want.

When it comes to my being.
my essence.
my central need.
it all boils down to You.

And this constant in itself
makes me feel less afraid.
I will always want You.
I will always want You.
I will always want You.
And you will never stop wanting me.