Friday, January 20, 2012

.trying something new.

I can not fully comprehend what is going on in my life currently.
Somehow the certain sense of chaos that has been my lifeblood up until this point
has been removed and strange level of safety has replaced it.
An unforeseen literary twist in the story of my life.
My narrative of adventure, travel, and extremes turning into
A tale about a girl coming of age.
Surprisingly never boring. Never dull.
But less alone.
More bold.
More confident.
Assured that this matters.

Stepping into the shoes she has been too afraid to soil.

Growing into the name she has heard whisper of.

Moments and glimpses of the voice she has been given.
Of the brilliance she fears may be inside of me.

Be brave, she tells herself.
Be brave.

Emboldened now.

Always being hit by the next wave of life-
Beginning to realize that that will never change.
But starting to swim instead of just trying to keep her head above water.

She wants more than just to survive.
She wants to be alert in the reality of her Maker.

"What are we doing?" she asks.
Trying something new.