.sometimes you almost feel like the beautiful woman of God you always hoped you were. it's like you see a glimpse of who you always dreamt you could be. and for a moment you believe it's possible. it's that fraction of a second where the relief (of finally seeing the beauty inside you being represented) swells. then it's gone. but you're glad it isn't always this way, or you tell yourself that. because if you always saw or could feel this tiny bit of beauty it wouldn't mean as much to you. so you read and re-read 1 peter 3:3-5
"Your beauty should not come from outward adornment, such as elaborate hairstyles and the wearing of gold jewelry or fine clothes. Rather, it should be that of your inner self, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is of great worth in God’s sight. For this is the way the holy women of the past who put their hope in God used to adorn themselves."
.and then you pray. you pray that He will change you. or give people eyes to see your spirit instead of your body. you knock on the door, having realized the person that you are, knowing that the only beautiful thing in you is your God. you knock on the door and ask for anything more beautiful than yourself, anything quiet and gentle. and the only thing that you want is Christ.
.and the only thing you want. .is Christ.
.and all that comes with Him.