.i don't wanna be witness to a path that's over grown.

i don't know what it is about this song but i can't get over it.

.and ill fall, and ill break, and ill fake you out.

this is probably the only time in my life
that i can honestly say
that i know what john mayer feels like.
"i'm tired of being alone, so hurry up and get here"
oh i feel you johnny boy, i feel you.

i just want christian to get here.
so someone else can be in the
midst of this displacement
with me.
i know that this is nothing like
what refugees go through
but if this is hard for me,
i can not imagine what
it is like for them.
i just want to BE SOMEWHERE.
somewhere for a bit.
someplace mine.
somewhere that i can nest.
there's no nesting when you
have to drive for freaking hours
all the time.

twentyonepilots seems to be helping find the words i need:

"you say i'm not alone but i am petrified. you say that you are close, is close the closest star? but you just feel twice as far. you just feel twice as far."

yep.
seriously.