.i don't know why i feed on emotion, the stomach inside my brain.
an experience of which i have nothing to compare it to.
these people. they feel.
they are real people.
just people.
they love.
they're fearful.
they're excited.
they're broken.
they're encouraging.
they're inspired.
they're brave.
they're goofy.
they're creative.
they're... blessed.
.i don't want to be heard. i want to be listened to.
i didn't want to be hugged.
i just wanted to express my amazement.
so easy to see my Love in that night.
.does it bother anyone else that someone else has your name.
i left that show.
speaking of our God.
staying up till 7 am speaking and thinking
deciphering.
my only keepsake- my burning calves the next day.
thankful for the pain that was a reminder of being alive.
.i scream.
.you scream.
.we all scream.
.cause we're all terrified.
.of whats around the corner.
alive.
.we stay in place cause we don't wanna lose our lives.
that's what that was.
alive.
.so lets think of something better.
if i could say nothing.
i could say i was alive.
they are alive.
we were all alive together.
.down in the forest we'll sing a chorus.
.one that everybody knows.
i went expecting nothing.
and was blown away.
.hands held higher- we'll be on fire.
my God orchestrated the most perfect
seemingly random night.
full of surprises He is.
glorious surprises.
that night can only be chalked up to Him.
and I'm so excited and thankful for what that will mean for me.
for what is to come from this.
.singing songs that nobody wrote.
im still deciphering.